Progress Report 2-6

Dear support group
I finally have reached a place where I felt comfortable enough to send you a progress report update. A handful of you already know that I am back getting some more treatment for a small activity that showed up at the last check up. This was 6 weeks ago. There was a lot of emotions going on and there were many reasons why I did not feel ready to broadcast or share the news right away; Some having to do with a sense of failure and disappointment that I have let everyone down especially my family, but another part of me was and maybe still in denial not wanting to change your perception of my miracle and my healing. I believe now though that my healing has indeed occurred and what I am going through at this moment is mostly continuing education. I need a few more credits before I can graduate fully and move on to fulfill my purpose in life of loving, serving and helping others.
As I reached this place of acceptance but not defeat I felt compelled to reconnect with you but the real reason is that most of you have been with me on this journey from the beginning – while others hopped on at different stations along the line - I would have not had the stellar results I had earlier and expect to repeat, was it not for each and every one of you loving me, cheering and praying for me and sending me the most encouraging and inspiring thoughts. I also found that writing this diary was an integral part of my healing process and that I need to continue doing it and it really helps if I know that I am talking to someone else besides myself. So with that in mind I felt it was ungrateful and unfair on my behalf not to at least leave you the option (if you choose) of riding once more with me, or just watching me, waving to me as I pass by on my healing journey and introduce you to the many miraculous places and people I encounter along the line. I understand now that journey is a lifelong project that cannot end because it belongs to eternity which has no beginning or end and is just is. God’s blessings continue to pour over me through you. Thank you again for all your love and support

Ps. If you want to catch up you have a lot of reading to do and need to go back 6 weeks. Sorry about that.

Week 6- I remember now what I was counting towards; the break next week. I had a great week with energy levels pretty much above normal. It even showed on my blood count drastically improving from last week, which prompted Sharbel to wonder if they were actually giving me anything. I really believe though that my perfect attendance to the exercise classes has a lot to do with it. As you see I am trying really hard to collect as many credits as possible for graduation and in the process became a power user of the Wellness Community. I will dedicate a write up on that sometime because it deserves a lot of attention and truly has become the theater for my new life experiences.
As I was waiting for my turn I ran into my new friend Tami. I met Tami at the Wellness Community at an exercise class. At the end we hang around and chatted about attitude and positive thinking and I found out that she was writing a book about what she calls Miracle Survivors. She is featuring 25 people who have beat the odds and lived to tell about it. Like me she believes in miracles and wants to show them to the world. I told her there isn’t enough of that going on so she really needs to get that book published. It also turned up we had more in common than our attitude. We were initially diagnosed about the same time and our recurrences happened around the same time. We see the same doctor and get treatment in the same clinic on the same day and we have been crossing paths as she leaves and I enter. This time knowing she was there I looked for her. We both believe that fate brought us together to double our strength and push each other until we cross the finish line of complete healing. She calls me her “partner in crime” a role I am more than happy to accept as I need her just as much as she needs me. If anyone is interested to know more about her book visit her blog at http://www.tamiboehmer.com/

I was finally called in, starting with the usual vitals taking and despite the chatting and the joking with the nurses the finger stick made me jump. I told them that I can never really get used to that jab and wonder how diabetics are able to do it to themselves over and over again. I guessed anyone would if there life really depended on it. But Jill agreeing with me described it best when she said that the finger stick is just “RUDE”. I never thought of it this way but it was a very fitting description. The rest of the session was pretty uneventful except that I learned for the first time as I was taking my pole with the hanging Dracula for a walk that you should not stand up if the IV has emptied because with the change of elevation the blood back up. It is nothing critical really just not very pretty or desirable. Karen sat me down and fixed me up before going on. Sharbel and I ended the afternoon with a nice Middle Eastern lunch before dropping him of at the airport then going to my Yoga class.
Much love
nevine